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I feel behind

Jeannelle

Aug 15, 2023

1 min read

I feel behind

Like everyone else knows

And I’m completely clueless

Like I missed the joke

And everyone else is laughing

I just don’t understand

These things called emotions

Loving someone

Seems like it’s impossible for me

No one understands me

I try my best to understand them

But I guess they don’t want to do the same

Things start great

We hit it off

Then

Nothing

Everything fades and I feel them pull away

Was is something I did

Was it something I said

Was there something I’m missing

I feel like a toddler in a race with big kids

I don’t stand a chance

Crawling and pulling myself through it

While everyone else gracefully passes by

Am I really that weird

Am I really that strange

Am I intimidating or intense

Am I crazy

I try to ask to figure out what’s wrong

But no one gives me an answer

Maybe to spare my feelings

Maybe because they think I’m stupid

Or maybe because I’m not supposed to ask

Is it taboo

Or am I just overthinking it all

I guess I’ll never know

As I trail behind

Further & further

Until I’m left alone

Forever

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