Late nights alone

It’s back. this feeling of being alone. no more holding back tears. I just began to open up again. & it happened again. I think I should just give up. this whole social game I don’t understand it. these stupid rules. these stupid plays. when is it my turn.

i feel like I’m watching everyone behind glass. never being able to interact or join. just stuck. alone. no voice. invisible. yeah being ignored sucks. But knowing I let myself fall into the same pit everytime.

over & over. nothing will change. i feel like I’m playing an extra in my own movie. just a shadow of someone. never my own person. no character development. no backstory. just barley there. just background noise to someone else’s story.

someone else’s happily ever after.